A bit off subject

So Christmas is looking pretty scary at this point. Not only am I worried about food and eating and just the whole situation that I am in, but here shit is going down.

My mother-in-law well I am not quite sure how to explain her. She lies constantly and doesn't even realize that she is lying. I mean here she said she voted for O'bama to then say that she only voted for him because Mc'Cain was going to die and she didn't want the V.P. to become President. Then the final was she didn't vote at all. She doesn't know what she ever says. And seriously if you don't lie you don't have to worry about what your saying or keeping your lies straight.

Then there is my sister-in-law. I guess I had a hard time because when I met everyone I was really happy. I was engaged and things seemed fine. but then being told what colors I could use in my wedding because of what looks good on my s-i-l .. shit I should have just said well don't be in it I'll have someone else instead of involving you.

And okay I'm not innocent in things. My husband and I have fought. I have been in the wrong at times and there is also things that he has done to me that I haven't quite forgiven. It's hard to try to forgive something that you just feel like you didn't deserve to be had to you. But the one thing that I have always tried to do is accept my faults and what I've done him wrong by. For him to have portrayed himself in a different way just gets my blood boiling. And then the fact that his mother can't see it. I've actually talked with her about things and no matter how hard it was for me to admit my faults to her I still did.. and here she has the audacity to say that I have something mentally wrong with me.. Um pretty sure I didn't have men coming in and out of my husbands house so I could get drugs. Nor have I had to be Alcohol dependent or prescription drug dependent. Ya I could go on.. oh like how you sat in the courts to allow your 17yr old to become dependent of the state instead of opening your home to him because in your words "I knew he wouldn't say yes". Really maybe you should have at least given him the option.

Okay.. enough about that.

So my whole thing is my brother-in-law is upset because both his mom and sister have said shit about his wife and he's over it. I also kinda feel like I might be getting dragged into it and I really hope that I am not. I don't have any issues with them. I have always gotta along with her and never have a problem. Just things seem like they will not end up well this year and I'm really not sure how to handle it.

I guess I just have to focus on myself and getting better for me. And my kids haha:) But that I can't take the bullshit anymore and I just have to concentrate on getting healthy again.. or healthy at least.. maybe not again because I don't know when that's been.

Well, wish me luck that's all I ask for. It's going to be interesting to say that least..